Abstract Thoughts in a Concrete World

Prussian Blue Permanent Rose Watercolor Abstract

Another shooting

this time at Inland Regional Center, a conference center in a community facility in San Bernandino, California that serves people with developmental disabilities.


Innocent lives lost to craziness and confusion and ugliness.

As I watched the non-stop coverage on the news –  trying to understand – not allowing myself to become “desensitized” to the madness,  I felt compelled to paint.

I wanted to just express my abstract thoughts and feelings in this concrete world.

Before I ever tried to paint, to watercolor, to create art,

I would look at abstract art and laugh, or dismiss, or discredit.

I thought to myself, and even said out loud, that anyone could “do THAT!”

It’s just paint splattered on paper.

But I’m drawn to abstract art now – like never before.

And I dare you to try it!

It is not as easy as it looks to the inexperienced critic.

It is actually much easier to paint and draw literally and concrete and exact.

But to paint abstract is to let the art speak your feelings, to let the paint “do it’s thing.”

So I brushed my paper with Prussian Blue and Permanent Rose and then a delicate mix of the two of them.

Then I splashed water on it all, expressing my confusion, my angst, my inability to understand our world’s inability for peace, for tolerance, for understanding, for love.

These two colors create such a beautiful tone when mixed together – like all of us.

But we can’t, won’t, don’t let it happen.

We fight it, we try to control it, we try to keep it separate, we try to make the rules, define the lines, keep it simple.

But life is not meant to be separated, defined by lines or be simple.

Life is about freedom… about being connected…

Life is complex.

But it is also loose and expressive and beautiful.

And so I created this abstract watercolor painting

that I have to admit I love,

and I am nervous to share for fear you will not – like – understand – feel – care – accept.

But I am being brave, and I am sharing.

It is my little expression of abstract thoughts in a concrete world.

Cheers & Hugs,


PS  Thanks to Deb Riley, an amazing artist I adore and follow and would love to emulate.   You have encouraged, enthused, and inspired me!

Who’s Afraid of the Big Bad Wolf? – Uh… Me!

big bad wolf
#Writing 101:  Your Personality on the Page:  Today’s Assignment – We all have anxieties, worries, and fears. What are you scared of? Address one of your worst fears.  Today’s twist: Write this post in a style distinct from your own.

Well – this assignment is a SUPER easy one.
You know why?
Because I’m afraid of everything…


I want to be brave, but truth be told – I’m a big scaredy-cat.  Afraid of the dark, afraid of stepping higher than three rungs on a ladder.

I want to be a daredevil, but I’m afraid to ride a motorcycle, afraid of super high speeds, deathly afraid of heights.

I want to be a thrill seeker, but – alas – afraid of roller coasters, wouldn’t even think about sky diving or bungee jumping.

I want to be one of those people who run INto catastrophic situations and help people (like my Marty), but my initial reaction is to run away scared….

But rather than write a Debbie Downer post about my miserable anxieties, let’s go with the twist and make it fun and silly in a “different style.”

So in David Letterman Top 10 style – – –

Here are the TOP 10 Reasons I am Afraid of Heights:

'I feel on top of the world, panicky, dizzy and nauseated. I'm afraid of heights.'

10.  If you fall, you can break your arm(s).

9.   If you fall, you can break your leg(s).

8.   If you fall, you can break your neck.

7.   If you fall, you can break your back.

6.   If you fall, you can bust your head open and suffer severe brain damage.

5.   If you fall, you could become paralyzed.

4.   When you are up high, you can lose your balance and fall.

3.   If you fall, you could land in an awkward looking position causing extreme embarrassment.

2.   If you fall, you can look really ridiculous during the process, causing extreme embarrassment.

And the #1 Reason I am Afraid of Heights……….   (drum roll……)

1.   If you fall, you could die.   Death=OK – Pain Dying=Not OK

'I'm afraid of heights.'

Do you agree?  Why isn’t everyone afraid of heights?!

Cheers & Scaredy-Cat Hugs,