this time at Inland Regional Center, a conference center in a community facility in San Bernandino, California that serves people with developmental disabilities.
Innocent lives lost to craziness and confusion and ugliness.
As I watched the non-stop coverage on the news – trying to understand – not allowing myself to become “desensitized” to the madness, I felt compelled to paint.
I wanted to just express my abstract thoughts and feelings in this concrete world.
Before I ever tried to paint, to watercolor, to create art,
I would look at abstract art and laugh, or dismiss, or discredit.
I thought to myself, and even said out loud, that anyone could “do THAT!”
It’s just paint splattered on paper.
But I’m drawn to abstract art now – like never before.
And I dare you to try it!
It is not as easy as it looks to the inexperienced critic.
It is actually much easier to paint and draw literally and concrete and exact.
But to paint abstract is to let the art speak your feelings, to let the paint “do it’s thing.”
So I brushed my paper with Prussian Blue and Permanent Rose and then a delicate mix of the two of them.
Then I splashed water on it all, expressing my confusion, my angst, my inability to understand our world’s inability for peace, for tolerance, for understanding, for love.
These two colors create such a beautiful tone when mixed together – like all of us.
But we can’t, won’t, don’t let it happen.
We fight it, we try to control it, we try to keep it separate, we try to make the rules, define the lines, keep it simple.
But life is not meant to be separated, defined by lines or be simple.
Life is about freedom… about being connected…
Life is complex.
But it is also loose and expressive and beautiful.
And so I created this abstract watercolor painting
that I have to admit I love,
and I am nervous to share for fear you will not – like – understand – feel – care – accept.
But I am being brave, and I am sharing.
It is my little expression of abstract thoughts in a concrete world.
Cheers & Hugs,
PS Thanks to Deb Riley, an amazing artist I adore and follow and would love to emulate. You have encouraged, enthused, and inspired me!