The Woman in the Mirror.
Who is she?
Sometimes she finds it hard to recognize the image
reflecting back at her.
She now has more age spots
than sun-kissed tan.
Her eyelids sag to make her look like she is squinting,
especially when she smiles big and laughs hard.
The “round” face she has always had is even fuller,
because she loves food and wine too much.
The lines around her mouth sag like the heavy parentheses
of a ventriloquist’s doll.
Her legs are truly not meant for public display,
and her boat-sized feet just don’t fit in those cute shoes anymore.
Her post-menopausal midsection
can no longer be “sucked” in.
She still tries though…
She puts on make-up
and dyes her hair.
She tries self-tanning lotions
and moisturizing hair products.
She tries to find clothes that suit her age
and full figure.
But there’s no hiding
behind the signs of 55.
She wishes she was as “fat” and “ugly”
as she thought she was when she was 15…
or 25 or 35
or even 45.
And even though that image in the mirror
is not who she feels like inside…
She actually likes herself more
than when she was 15 or 25 or 35 or 45.
She has stronger opinions,
and she is not ashamed to express her own thoughts.
She takes time for herself
and doesn’t feel bad about it.
She supports things
that are important to her.
She believes women who reveal
they have been assaulted,
because she has been
victim to that herself.
She loves her family with a fervor
she never knew possible.
And she loves herself
(something she has to work at every day).
She is a wife and mother
and grandmother.
She is a business woman
and an artist.
She is a woman living in these times,
and she is glad for that.
Cheers & Hugs,
Jodi
the creative life in between 